That's going to hurt tomorrow.

I think the friend I go walking with is trying to kill me!

I few weeks ago I mentioned heading to one of our local parks (Rosalind Park) because it has a few hills and steps,which would be good to add to our exercise routine

Well tonight she took that suggestion one step further!

Behind the park there is an oval which like most ovals and has a grand stand. Its not a big grand stand but its elevated by 20 steep steps (which by the way there are 4 lots of them). We walked around the oval then run up and down each lot (remember there is 4 of them) of steps, then back around the oval and then again up and down each lot of steps.
So in total we walked 9 laps of the oval and jogged 8 lots of  4x 20steps
So that is a total of around 9 kilometers and 640 steps

BUT it didn't end there, no the torture wasn't over yet. At the top of the park, where we had parked the car there is a poppet head. She  made us walk to the top and back down again. All 124 steps!! OUCH!

Rosalind Park Poppet Head Lookout

Yes the view from the top was worth is but,

OUCH! Its going to hurt tomorrow!!

The black hole

I just can't seem to fully climb out of this hole I'm in. Just when I think I can see the light I feel the blackness taking over me again.
I have so much I want to get done but so little motivation. Its taking my everything to just keep on with this "heathy way of life" (or in real speak DIET) let a lone the power to do anything else.
I haven't touched the sewing machine in months :( That depresses me just thinking about it, how my business is slipping away each day. I go to bed thinking to myself tomorrow I will get started, tomorrow I will drag myself out of this, tomorrow I will get stuck into the sewing (something I love) but as soon as I open my eyes all I feel is the blackness.
Someone once said to me "just do it"
It sounded so simple. I deactivated my facebook account, and put my forum account on ban thinking maybe if I didn't have the distraction of the net I would be able to claw my way out easier but I'm not sure it has helped. It has just made me feel so alone.
I have had a couple of my friends text me in that time to say hi and ask how I am, which I cherish but seriously out of 109 facebook friends only 2 have text me and 1 I catch up with everyday (thank god for her).
If it wasn't for my friend Caz I'm sure I would be down in my hole twice as deep.
She has been a great distraction from the darkness.  Speaking of, its time for our nightly walk, I wonder how many laps of the lake she will us do tonight. The other day she tried to kill me with NINE!

So how does one "just do it"? How do you climb out of the darkness and back in to the world of the living?

Maybe tomorrow there will more light in my life. I can only hope.

Oompa Loompa, do-ba-dee-doo

I never realised looking like an Oompa Loompa was fashionable, Or maybe its just that I'm just getting old.

Friday evening while out for my walk with a friend ( we walk every night, yay go me) there was a couple walking a dog. She was tall, lean and pretty but had the skin colour of an Oompa Loompa. *insert WFT face here*
She hasn't been the only one I have seen either. It seems ever second young girl/woman I see out and about has gone and gotten this look.
Since when has being orange been beautiful?

Rally I just don't get it. It boggles my mind. What is wrong with having a normal natural coloured body??
I can  even understand ( just a little) the want for a light fake tan but one that makes you look like you daddy is a Oompa Loompa, seriously!
Hmm as I said maybe I'm just getting old LOL

And while I'm here venting I may as well get the doggie do situation that is on my nerves out.
There are signs that says ALL DOGS MUST BE ON A LEAD all around the lake. What part of that do dog owners (not all, only some) not understand! There are rules like that for a reason people!
Also if you your dog takes a dump while your out at a public place clean it up! I'm SO sick of walking along and having to dodge doggie do do. GAH its disgusting!

Hmm can anyone day Chocolate withdrawals LOL

MMM chocolate, oh how I miss the!

Weight in day tomorrow, fingers crossed that 9 kilometer walk I did today helped and the scales are nice to me :)

Hope every one enjoys what is left of their weekend
xx

For those not old enough to know what an Oompa Loompa is here you go,
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Well hello there

Long time no post.  Firstly due to a bit of a downer and then due to kicking myself up the ass and getting myself busy thus getting myself out of that downer.

You may of noticed I didn't finish the January photo challenge. Well I half did and half didn't. I DID take the photos I just haven't uploaded them yet. I will get around to doing it very soon though.

So what has been taking up all my time? I started to move my ass and lose weight!
A few weeks ago I really looked in the mirror, like stood naked after my shower and had a good hard look. What I saw made me sad, angry and disgusted. I had become what I had always said I wouldn't... FAT
I was the heaviest I have ever been and it wasn't a good feeling.
At first it got me really depressed, hence my downer. But after a week or so with the help of friend that also wants to lose weight I got myself into the head space I needed.
I started the 1 million kilo challenge on the 29th of January so have been making up healthy meals and getting myself off the couch and moving. I have been walking every night with a girlfriend for the past week, still hurts afterwards but we are getting there.
I'm not a huge fan of the meal plan, I find the breakfast way to much so I have just been replacing it with either fruit and yogurt or making a smoothie. lunch I have just been having a salad wrap (rye ones) and dinner has been a few of their recipes or just meat and veg.
I'm really just using it to record my weight loss and keep myself motivated.

I'm happy to report I have lost a total of 3.3 kilos this week  *happy dance*

 I still have a long way to go (about 40kilos)  but I CAN DO THIS!  

Something to remember